I need to get back to the way things were. I can't let myself fall into this. Don't fall for him, don't let your grades slip, worry about only yourself.
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We live in a world that is immense and beautiful, full of opportunities and experiences. Take a step back, breathe in, and live in the moment. Stop thinking about that test you have tomorrow, work late, or that boy that you like that is moving away. I know in my life, it is so hard to just stop thinking and be. Just Be. It is so amazing that we live on this dynamic planet. Take it all in.
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I have always been the type of person that does or abstains from things because "it's the right thing to do" I don't know if its because of how I was raised or because it feels good, but I have always felt different. Is it my own sense of ethics that I am living by or is it a societal standard? I didn't drink most of my life because I don't want to disappoint my parents, myself and those around me. I'm a person that feels an immense amount of guilt. Drinking, drugs, eating unhealthy food, stealing, lying. I am constantly trying to do everything in my power to experience and grow and not let this life pass me by. I want to constantly try to prove to myself that I can do more and I try to do the best in everything I do. I think that sometimes I am holding myself to an unattainable standard and that is what lowers my self esteem, but I also don't want to change that about myself.